Through my postpartum journey, I had found that there is very little support for mothers once they leave the hospital. I want to give you the support that I did not have.
Fast forward to 38 weeks and 3 days. I woke up at 4:30 AM because I had an extreme headache, my husband checked my BP multiple times and in 45 minutes it just kept rising. I called the OB on call and she told me to come into the hospital. I went to the hospital for monitoring again by myself. My husband went to work 2 hours away!!
About 5.5 hours later (1 PM Thursday 12/3), they decided to admit me to the hospital for an induction. The induction started with insertion of cytotec every 4 hours. The wait consisted of snacking, walking, and watching Christmas movies on the TV.
Friday at 11 AM my water broke on its own and I started to progress. Then walking and bouncing started until I couldn't progress anymore, but the contractions were stronger and faster. I was dilated to a 4 and I was 10% effaced. My husband and I discussed our options and we thought an epidural may help. I got my epidural that completely stopped my contractions and only took on my right side. I could completely feel everything on my left side. I joked with the nurses that I could be on a kick line!!
After what felt to be 4-5 hours of movement intended to reposition the baby (my perception of time was definitely skewed), my back laboring began. For about an hour I back labored and the pain was like nothing I had ever experienced. I had dilated to a 5 and was 30% effaced, but I could not progress. My doctor discussed our options and recommended a c-section. I immediately began to cry because no one has prepared me for a c-section and "I was having a natural birth". All of these questions flooded my mind, but just like that - I was being prepped for the OR. Due to fatigue and pain medication, I was in and out of consciousness. I heard Parker cry for the first time and that’s when I knew she was here. I remember saying "hi, baby" and then immediately saying "I’m going to be sick". I turned the other way and threw up. I woke up for periodic pain in my abdominal region and I remember making a “whine/wimper” noise to which one the nurses kept asking me if I was okay. I was wheeled into the recovery room at 3 AM. From recovery I was exhausted and felt so lost.
They encouraged skin to skin and feeding, however, I was so weak and tired. My husband tells me he remembers me sleeping the whole time in recovery. BUT my reason WHY I’m here is because of my birth story. I was not prepared for a c-section. No one tells you to do your research beforehand. No one tells you that just because you have a birth plan doesn't mean that will be your birth story.
I am here to support mothers and babies that were like me and did not have postpartum follow up support. I had people that would say, "What can I help with..?" But how do you say "EVERYTHING"? I am here to support mothers with their breast feeding journey. I am also here when they little ones grow and need further feeding guidance and recommendations. I am here...so let's get to know each other!